So last week was a rough week. Not sure if it was work or other stressors, but I didn't work out, eat or take my medicine like I am supposed to. I woke up this morning and weighed in. Not good. Gained back 7 pounds in 6 days. My blood pressure is back up to scary levels and my legs are showing +2 edema. Really swollen and painful to touch.
I got up this morning and managed 10 minutes on the bike. I only did 3.83 miles and was exhausted. I did take all my medicine and wear my ted hose for the edema. Ate pretty healthy - peanut butter on whole grain bread for breakfast, bean soup for lunch, piece of string cheese for a snack, rice and teryaki chicken for dinner. and lots and lots of water.
Trying to motivate to go workout. just so frustrated and disgusted with myself. while I know that a lot of the weight gain is water weight I get very disgusted at not being able to get the weight off and keep it off. I feel fat and ugly and worthless. and nothing changes that other than getting up and exercising and eating the way i'm supposed to. so, I'm off to make myself exercise. Afterall, no one can do it for me but me.
So I made myself work out. I didn't really want to but am feeling pretty darn glad I did. For one thing I found out I can bench 85 pounds. Not terribly impressive, but not bad considering I haven't actively lifted weights in several years. I also broke the 12 mile barrier. Instead of setting the timer on the bike, I set it for 12 miles, determined I'd do it for however long it took since I wasn't hitting 12miles in 30 minutes (my best had been 11.99 miles in 30 minutes). I did it tonight though...12 miles in 29.5 minutes. Am very happy about that. Now to get some sleep and get ready for tomorrow.
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